Tuesday, April 17, 2012

ramblings

shirt: F21 skirt: Kohl's earrings: gift belt: F21 bracelets: F21 watch: Fossil (brown band) shoes: Target

This might seem like a bunch of ramblings, and I am here to tell you that it is. With this year first year of college ending, I feel like my future is uncertain.

I am moving back into my parents house in nine days. Into my old room, back into familiar surroundings that I have always known. I love my family and the home I was raised in, but after living for a year on my own, I am unsure of how the transition is going to go.

Jared and I have had basically our own separate lives for a year. With him in Virginia for the fall and now in Sarasota this spring, we have grown to be okay with being apart. Now that I am moving back, I fear that the lives that we have made separately will not match up the way they used to.

I always said that after I met Jared, nineteen would be the earliest I would be engaged. I have been ready for some time to start our lives together, as young as I may be, and as soon as nineteen came and is half way gone, I am slowly learning that my plans are not always the ones God has for me. I cannot control everything as much as I would like to. Taking the backseat is not my strong point, and I don't know if it ever will be.

My nursing student aspirations are up in the air. I don't know where I'll end up or if I am taking all the precautions that I need to in order to hasten my career. Jumping through hoops is putting it lightly for all that is needed to be done to become a nurse, and I hope that one day, someday soon, I will get there.

I feel like if I want something done, I have to do it myself. My reliance upon others is small, and sometimes I wish I was as optimistic about others as some people are. It's not that I am pessimistic, I feel I am just a realist. I focus on fact and actuality of situations; never wanting to come across as naive or vulnerable. The only problem is that I am not sure this is a good thing.

Saying the right thing at the right time has never been a gift of mine. My mouth will think before my brain and sometimes I don't even have much to say at all. I wish the words that I said would always reflect what I truly meant, and when I do say things, they would only build people up.


That's only a little of what been rolling around my mind lately; thanks for letting me vent.
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8 comments:

Amy and the City said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I have felt so many of those things before!
College can feel as though you are getting nowhere cant it?! There is so much too do, it is crazy.

Hoping that everything works out well for you moving back home :)

Amy xo

Sierra said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Moving home can be a bit depressing, but once you graduate and are living on your own for good, you will appreciate the time that you got to spend with your family. Besides, it's only for the summer and it will go by really fast :)

I really love your outfit. T-shirts and skirts are my new favorite combo.

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Vanessa Wittmer said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I love your outfit! So cute.. and your hair! My word, you are gorgeous!

I know worry about the future, especially when it's uncertain is only natural and so easy to do.. but we don't need to because God has it all planned and knows exactly what He has for you. I can't wait to see where God takes you, Amy! You will be doing amazing things! :)

xo, Vanes.
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Steph@ Living The Young Life said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

cute outfit!!!

MessyDirtyHair said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

i love this outfit! so cute! the color of your skirt is fabulous! super cute blog, new follower!

xo Kelly

Darianne said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Love the outfit.
I know going back home while you were on your own sucks, but its only for a couple of months.

xoxo

AMY PALMER said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Thanks for support everyone! But I'm afraid my time at home will be until I find a place myself or am hearing the wedding bells. I
know it will all work out in the end.

-Amy

Bernadeth said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

lovely skirt! goodluck on the next few days :) http://missbeatrix.blogspot.com/

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