a start of something new

There's something new in the air, or rather my brain and stomach. Tomorrow I start the new adventure in my life of coming an LPN (licensed practical nurse). Ah! For a whole year, from February to February, Monday through Thursday, I will be diving head first into some completely new territory. Since December 16th of last year, I have become pretty accustomed to working and only working (oh and this love of mine of course), but now everything is about to change. This is where my stomach and brain come into play. Mentally, I feel ready for this to happen. Always being strong academically, I feel as though most of the work will be something I can accomplish with no problem. Emotionally, it's a different story. I am not going to lie when I say that doubts are circling around in my mind. What if I don't like it? What if I don't have what it takes to see all of the things that most people run away from? Is this really the career that I want to do? I could probably come up with ten other questions to ask myself over and over.

I'm sure some of you can agree with me when I say that starting something that starts the rest of your life can be scary. When thinking how other people's lives are eventually going to be in my hands, I only become more anxious. But I feel as though this is the path that God has laid out for me. Therefore, I am going to give it everything I have. Whether I faint, cry, or continually have doubts, I will be back here in a year with a passing certificate. Because I have hope that this is what He wants me to do.

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By taking this leap of faith, I am hopefully starting into something amazing. It may not be what I feel as though will fulfill me fully because there are so many different things I love, but I do feel as though this is where I am supposed to be. And hopefully, after starting my classes and becoming accustomed, I can say about myself:

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The future is something that is so foreign to me, but that is something that is to great about life. I will never know what life plans have been set for me; I can only trust that I am in somebodies hands who is all knowing and who will allow me to be the normal confused human that I am.

Prayers are appreciated as I start this new career path! Also, my outfit of the day may change, but that doesn't mean my love of clothes will not. So I would love if you stick around to watch the hot mess that I will soon become. Who knows, it might be fun!

Happy Monday!

different directions

(sorry for Old Navy overload, sometimes you can't help it) sweater, scarf, jeans: Old Navy bracelets: Carlisle Gifts & F21 shoes: Simply Vera Wang via kohls

Everyone, this is going to be a quick one. Maybe because of the fast that it's almost midnight and this girl has to wake up before the crack of dawn. I have some pretty exciting things happening in my life lately. One being that tomorrow I get to go to the Vera Bradley Premiere in Orlando, Florida. You know, just the  perks of working at a gift shop that happens to carry Mrs. Bradley. It's going to be a color explosion, but I am up for it.

On another note...

Just as everything seems to be going well, I am finding myself struggling more and more about what I am meant to do in this life. There is a passion inside of me for writing and a practical side of me for the health care field. It's almost as if I am being pulled in completely different directions; I don't want to lose out on any opportunities.

Have you ever felt this way? There is nothing I want more than to decide what I want to do any stick with it, but lately, it just doesn't seem that easy.

Sorry to dump my complicated nutshell on you. Maybe some Canyon or Provencial goodness can cheer me up (lingo of someone who talks the Vera language frequently)

Happy Hump Day!